I just told my friend this the other day. I am such a flight risk. I have gotten way to good at falling off the face of the earth & not returning calls, texts, messages, anything. I am trying to be like that anymore though. I have been broken & beaten here lately & I am back to ground 0 starting all over again. Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind change but I do not enjoy EVERY SINGLE THING CHANGING AT ONCE. That is too much & too rough on me at times. I have tried though to take up journal-ing as a way to calm my thoughts & my nerves & it is actually working somewhat. Now only if I could get up & actually do something with my life, but you have to have friends to do anything & the friends I have are in a county I cannot even drive through without breaking down. Sad, I know. I have lived in Angelina County for a year & a half now & I have not one friend here, & it is now starting to suck because right now I REALLY DO NEED A FRIEND HERE. I am so ready to just get away, California in a month, tomorrow, & I swear no one will hear from me in a week. I wont answer calls/texts, I wont even get on any social network site, I need that time to myself. I deserve it after all the crap I have been through lately.